Mother’s Day…

It’s been a while… I promised myself when I started this blog that I would only write when I felt compelled. I know so many have been wondering and asking how my mom is, and I am ready for an update. Truthfully, so much has been going on lately that I am not sure myRead more

and just like that…. a redemption song

For years, I have repeatedly been surprised by God. You know the kind of surprises that scream, “I’m a miracle”. The events that happen when you least expect them in ways that don’t make sense. The choices people make that you would never imagine. Moments that make you realize that giving up is never anRead more

My experience with the stigma of mental illness

Humans need connection. We need to relate and want to feel a part of something. Research proves this. Unfortunately, mental Illness leaves individuals and families more alone than any other illness. How often do we hear friends, family, coworkers, and church talking or praying for mental illness? Yet, how often do we hear the words, high blood pressure,Read more

For my mom on Mother’s Day

  Mom, I know you didn’t plan things to turn out this way I wish you could understand what we go through every day I know if you could, you would take it all away You would tell me not to worry and go on with my life You would tell Dad you were sorryRead more

How I manage anxiety

As I mentioned in my last post, I have suffered from anxiety for a very long time, however, I really did not realize I had generalized anxiety until later in life. Once I was able to identify what was going on and that I did not have to always feel that way, I was fullRead more

I have anxiety but it doesn’t have me…

I remember we were in my parent’s large bed, it was dark, and I was lying on her shoulder when she first spoke words that scared me to my core. She was my protector for so long, but after that night, everything changed. She told me to be very quiet and asked if I heardRead more

The current state of things…

As of a little over a week ago, mom was still in the hospital and we had yet to hear a thing. I was getting my hair cut when my phone rang. I let it go and did not think a thing of it, but then it rang again and again… and again. There isRead more

The downside of privacy laws…

Last week, the day after this post, my mom made her way into the hospital. It took a few pit stops (think police station and a another emergency room visit) before she made it to 24 hour surveillance at the mental health hospital. We know she made it there thanks to information from the ER,Read more

Mental Illness stole my Monday

I had a post planned out for today but the heaviness of the day is taking over my thoughts and I am just going with it.  I am not a huge fan of Mondays. I am working on gratefulness and finding things to look forward to in each day, especially Mondays because  I find myselfRead more

Miss Congeniality

We just celebrated my daughter’s second birthday. Since mom was too sick to come last year, I was thankful dad was able to bring her, but it didn’t make it easy. It was bittersweet. Last year, when she could not come to the 1st Birthday, it was tough. I never imagined a year later weRead more